I rely on the calendar. I have tried to learn to use the iTouch to help me stay organized. I use circles, arrows, lines, stars, etc in my written calendar. So, I am frustrated that I can't use the technology afforded me to stay on time and organized.
I need the creativity the written calendar offers and the flexibility to change/erase in the written one. I have so many appts, I must use something. Perhaps I am stuck in the past.
Showing posts with label A.D.D.. Show all posts
Showing posts with label A.D.D.. Show all posts
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
A.D.D. & The Lightning Thief
This paragraph on page 11 of the book, "The Lightning Thief" sums it up well for me:
"I have moments like that a lot, when my brain falls asleep or something, and the next thing I know I've missed something, as if a puzzle piece fell out of the universe and left me staring at the blank place behind it. The school counselor told me this was part of the ADHD, my brain misinterpreting things."
HA! This is exactly what I deal with on a daily basis!
"I have moments like that a lot, when my brain falls asleep or something, and the next thing I know I've missed something, as if a puzzle piece fell out of the universe and left me staring at the blank place behind it. The school counselor told me this was part of the ADHD, my brain misinterpreting things."
HA! This is exactly what I deal with on a daily basis!
Monday, April 07, 2008
Bad Grades
I recall getting my first "D" in the Ninth Grade. My parents were beside themselves. I believe I was more upset that I had disappointed them, more than myself. I was okay with mediocrity, or worse.
Later in college, I flunked a summer class...twice! Why? I don't know, other than I was bored and hated going to class in June. Hmmmmmmmm, can anyone say early signs of A.D.D.? That's classic behavior by someone as sick as me. If I do not like something or perhaps it's too hard mentally - I quit. I'm done when the brain goes overload or boooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg.
Skip now to today. My ministry efforts in the last seven years were really hard with very few results. The job wasn't boring, it was overwhelming and too hard to accomplish. So, I quit. Now I live with shame over the fact that I was basically a CEO, with some strongly opinionated board members, of a company of 150 people - and it lost money (no lie - when I arrrived in 99 we had $100,000 in bank. When I left in 04, we had $20,000 in bank). I did not receive one raise in those five years.
I am running out of hope, stamina, and energy. I have lived with many "D"'s and unfortunately, so has my family. The A.D.D. monster keeps telling me to give up trying.
Something in me tells me to hang in there and remain close to God - for the day is not done, the sun has not set, and the stars will shine tonight.
Later in college, I flunked a summer class...twice! Why? I don't know, other than I was bored and hated going to class in June. Hmmmmmmmm, can anyone say early signs of A.D.D.? That's classic behavior by someone as sick as me. If I do not like something or perhaps it's too hard mentally - I quit. I'm done when the brain goes overload or boooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg.
Skip now to today. My ministry efforts in the last seven years were really hard with very few results. The job wasn't boring, it was overwhelming and too hard to accomplish. So, I quit. Now I live with shame over the fact that I was basically a CEO, with some strongly opinionated board members, of a company of 150 people - and it lost money (no lie - when I arrrived in 99 we had $100,000 in bank. When I left in 04, we had $20,000 in bank). I did not receive one raise in those five years.
I am running out of hope, stamina, and energy. I have lived with many "D"'s and unfortunately, so has my family. The A.D.D. monster keeps telling me to give up trying.
Something in me tells me to hang in there and remain close to God - for the day is not done, the sun has not set, and the stars will shine tonight.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
An Email Exchange With My Boss
I am not to give out Allied shirts unless it comes from you or our Sales Reps on Lotus Notes. Right?
Viola, I have what my therapist calls “severe A.D.D.” in fact, in his 22 years of counseling – I am the worst he has seen in a man (I guess some women have it worse?)
One of the tools I have had to learn (along with daily medication) is to repeat information back to the sender. I have tremendous gaps in my retention and understanding of information. It has really hurt my performance and relationships.
I broke down my pride and went to get help two years ago and was diagnosed then.
Anyway, I tell you this not as an excuse, but an explanation of me sometimes not finishing tasks on time.
I get distracted very easily and have to use tools like written reminders, repeating information, using my calendar (if I remember to look at it – no lie!) Making lists is helpful, but really hard for me to accomplish. In fact, one time I made a nice list of things to be done for the week...I lost the list! Can you believe it?
Enough rambling, thanks for your patience.
Roger Feeback
Marketing Assistant
Flexitallic L.P.
www.flexitallic.com
Hey,
Don’t worry about this. You have been doing an excellent job and I have no problems. We all make mistakes. But, to reiterate, the Allied shirts only go out upon Jim's or my request only. If you receive a Lotus Notes request for a shirt, send out the other ones, not the Allied shirts. If you get a request for the Allied shirts, ask me first.
Thanks,
Viola
Viola, I have what my therapist calls “severe A.D.D.” in fact, in his 22 years of counseling – I am the worst he has seen in a man (I guess some women have it worse?)
One of the tools I have had to learn (along with daily medication) is to repeat information back to the sender. I have tremendous gaps in my retention and understanding of information. It has really hurt my performance and relationships.
I broke down my pride and went to get help two years ago and was diagnosed then.
Anyway, I tell you this not as an excuse, but an explanation of me sometimes not finishing tasks on time.
I get distracted very easily and have to use tools like written reminders, repeating information, using my calendar (if I remember to look at it – no lie!) Making lists is helpful, but really hard for me to accomplish. In fact, one time I made a nice list of things to be done for the week...I lost the list! Can you believe it?
Enough rambling, thanks for your patience.
Roger Feeback
Marketing Assistant
Flexitallic L.P.
www.flexitallic.com
Hey,
Don’t worry about this. You have been doing an excellent job and I have no problems. We all make mistakes. But, to reiterate, the Allied shirts only go out upon Jim's or my request only. If you receive a Lotus Notes request for a shirt, send out the other ones, not the Allied shirts. If you get a request for the Allied shirts, ask me first.
Thanks,
Viola
Thursday, March 13, 2008
The Fog
Dear God,
The fog has drifted in off the shore…my "paper" is due and I’m not ready…it’s like a dream full of unfinished assignments, late projects, and that horrible feeling of failure and playing catch-up.
The A.D.D. monster has barged in again to attack my mind and body. I just can’t seem to win this war. You have to fight for me Jesus! Fight this battle for me so that I can function at work and home today and tonight - tomorrow will worry about itself.
This is more than neurological and medical, it is spiritual - as everything is spiritual.
The fog has drifted in off the shore…my "paper" is due and I’m not ready…it’s like a dream full of unfinished assignments, late projects, and that horrible feeling of failure and playing catch-up.
The A.D.D. monster has barged in again to attack my mind and body. I just can’t seem to win this war. You have to fight for me Jesus! Fight this battle for me so that I can function at work and home today and tonight - tomorrow will worry about itself.
This is more than neurological and medical, it is spiritual - as everything is spiritual.
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